rezeki.

Lebih baik terus mengemukakan fakta, 

dari terus menyalut janji dengan krim susu pekat manis yang kemungkinan besar, 

sudah terlepas tarikh luput.

keep calm, and carry on.

fine.

nope, not the 'saman' one.

let's move on to the next topic shall we?

bermuka-muka.

Itu bahaya.
perlu lebih berhati-hati selepas ini.

lights.

The canvas so colorful before,

are now looking bleak.

the rhythm now,

are not as it use to be.

is it time, or situation ?

that cause the path so bright,

turn gloomy and uncertain now?

questions, predictions,

lingers around my room of thought,

of what will happen next.

"to be or not to be? that is the questions"

ah, I need an inspiration now,

journey.

I wish I can leave all this for a moment,

pack my things, and goes wherever I can.

I feel empty. 

demotivated.

or just maybe I'm too comfortable with things right now.

I don't like it.

masa itu.

pantas.
tidak akan berulang.

pilih.
sama ada ingin lemas kaku ditinggalkan arus.
atau bangun berlawan.

pilih.
untuk menikmati.
atau mati.

reflect.

Maturity is crucial.

it determines every decision one has to make everyday.

it shaped what people sees about an individual.

and it also help someone from doing something that can ruin his image.

So far,

I think,

I'm not matured enough.

but I wonder does maturity grows with age?

because I'm confuse as there are still people who I find,

to be older and matured but, somehow they are,

not matured enough to conclude the meaning behind everything.

so does maturity grows with age?

or maturity itself divided into several categories?

what is the meaning of maturity really?

ah whatever.

I don't know.

but what I do know is,

I'll take everything that I've done as a lesson,

to be better.

screaming and spreading out people's weakness is not my style.

changes.

changes we need.

but too much of it, is not good either.

Things must be kept in balance,

or else, the old stuff will feel that it's no longer be the priority it was back then.

sigh,

assurance.

Weeks gone by..

and I can't believe I've been here for months.

yes, I am exhausted.

but what's need to be done must be done.

I've worked hard.

It's up to decision makers to choose, whether I am worthy or not.

 

sometimes

mahu tidur awal hari ini.
cuba tengok esok akan rasa best atau tidak.

rasanya aku perlu buat twitter account. tidak tahu mahu tulis apa dah panjang-panjang.

first baby.

long sigh of relief.
is the only thing that I can do now.

I'm glad, that I've taken up the challenge.
It's true what they say.
All the pain and suffering that you've endured before,
will all be forgotten soon after it goes on air.

This will be a very late promo.
watch MAGSEVEN at tonton.com.my.
episode 24.
thanks.

fast.

Today and yesterday,
will simply not be the same.

confidence.

skills alone can't guarantee success in your life,
hence, experience plays vital role in determining your every actions.
I've followed someone with huge experience in his hand today.
and for that, I respects his every move and decisions.

and yes, I'll try to learn as much as I can.

visit his blog - http://www.mazidulakmal.com/

tolong.

kadang,
aku juga tak faham.
kalau sudah susah sangat. tutup sahajalah.
bukan tidak mahu tolong.
tapi rasanya sudah penat.
dan kecewa juga barangkali.

adakah tidak faham?
yang aku memerlukan sangat hari ini.
hari untuk aku senyum sepanjang hari.
esok sudah pasti aku sibuk kembali.

tidak sabar aku untuk berdiri sendiri.
kerana pada masa itu,
aku akan nyatakan sendiri,
apa yang aku rasa selama ini.
terima kasih.

pace.

here,
people seems to walk faster than usual,
so I have to adapt with the pace too,
in order to not be left behind.

there are still much to learn,
so far, I'm happy,
and I hope things will be okay,
though I know the worst is still yet to come.

and they say

without motivation, you will be weak, no matter how strong and intelligent you are.

I second that.

so I will motivate myself yet again,
with dreams and objective.
so that I can prove the world to the fact that,

David,
can really kick that Goliath ass.

epic ride.

It has been fun. so fun that I forgot, I left some of my stress-stuff hover around this space.
yeah, the dilemma of academic writing is done. long ago.
I just write it away and send what I think is best.
the result is quite okay, but not enough to make me smile.

but it's okay.
considering that this last two month is the best months in my life this year.
friends, works, and activities, endless fun.
made me smile once more.

but the fun made not to last,
this will end soon,
and I will start the journey on another world.
full with unknown possibilities.

I feel like staying.
but staying limit my thoughts.
so I'll go and experience things on the other side,
even though they say life is hard over there,
but I will deny that,
in order to grow and reach what I thought is the top.

tulis.taip.

dear blog,

long time no see.

wait for it.

wait for it.

it's raining.

outside and inside.

surprise.

you will experience an unexpected things happens in your life sometimes,
and you know that things will never be the same again after that.

I guess from now on,
I'll sit, and watch what will happen after this.
good luck.

fight.

I will fight.
I will try to break free from this annoyance with all my might.

Complaining about how unlucky I am will not help me graduate.

I've been dealing with this thing for years, 

and yes, I'm sure I am not loving it.

I don't see any use of this thing in the future I want to pursue, 

and I wonder why they kept implementing it every year.

Academic Writing. I hate you.

infinity loop.

It will never end.

I need to break free immediately.

motivation

man. I need something to motivate me.


"ptptn. cepat sikit boleh tak? banyak duit nak kena pakai ni"


edited 11/2/11. thank you.

tonight.

desu!

GACHA-LOVE!

my band's first single! do support us and give us your comments :)

you can also download the single here -> http://www.mediafire.com/?jh3zrjqa3n7a07d

acapella.

you can say whatever you want man. but I love acapella. and they did good. Good enough to make watch they sing till the end. despite Justin's ugly hair. hahah!

ps: Syarmin Lee. kamu senasib dengan Justin Timberlake rupanya.

otherside.

travelling.

costly. yet, I find it to be very interesting.

the feeling and the chances of seeing something new, tasting different foods, experiencing other cultures and norms fascinates me.

but the fact that I'm just a regular guy who relies on ptptn and his parent money to study and do anything else.. sigh.

I'm frustrated.

but hey, patience and hard work is the key right?

wait world. in a few years time. I'll invade you and learn things that I could never learn in my own home.

just you wait, you.

pandai.

saya tak pandai bercakap. saya tak pandai berkata-kata.
saya lagi suka terus buat dan buktikan.
tapi saya sedar, apa yang saya buat ini tak cukup,
saya pelajar, boleh tunggu tak?
bila saya stabil, awak cakap saja.
saya terus kota.

tapi sedih, buat saja tidak cukup.
kata-kata itu juga penting akhirnya.

kalau kamu kata mahu pergi dan tak mahu saya lagi. cakap saja. tak perlu tunggu salah.jelas kut nampak saya tahu dah. tunggu masa saja nak angkat kaki pergi. dan sekarang lah masanya. terima kasih. jumpa lagi.

23

I use to wonder and guess

"What will I be years from now?"

I guess the question remains the same until now.

Well anyway this age will mark the last year that I will be in school. Unless, if I wanted to pursue Masters later on. For now, I think I have enough spending 90% of my life studying. This year is my last chance to prepare for the real world, and I hope I will be prepared.

and yes, I do really hope for a better luck.

wahai pemberi pinjaman.

diharap kamu boleh menyenangkan hidup saya awal sikit dalam minggu ini juga. banyak perkara perlu diselesaikan ni.