Saturday, December 15, 2012


I have a problem,
despite my job,
I'm a bit socially awkward.

I tend to be quiet with people I don't know..

I don't usually be like 

'hey how are you?'
'today is hot eh?'
'tak balik lagi?'
dah makan?'

I thought those lines were silly, and too mainstream.
and because I couldn't come up with something better,
staying quiet is the best choice.

I need an igniter,
people who just spit out those mainstream lines,
so that I can connect and engage a conversation with them.

while waiting for a recording tape,
I tried to engage in a conversation with a lady,

and like usual,
I failed to think of a pickup lines  conversation starter.

gotta man up next time.
and maybe use those mainstream silly lines for a try.

Friday, November 16, 2012


Bashing an institution through a social media...
couldn't help all the innocent people being tortured over there.


or go there, help them survive.

Sheesh, and I can only talk.

Thursday, November 15, 2012


Often I thought about my future.
Will people recognize me when I'm dead?
Will I be able to stamp a mark in this life?

and be remembered?

I need to make a name for myself on this planet before I'm gone.

Saturday, November 10, 2012


losing things,
is not what I am aiming for ...

but in order to win, 
we must first taste defeat.

Monday, October 29, 2012

taken for granted.

It's sad to see something that you've sacrificed with your whole heart,
is taken by granted.

no appreciation.

but above that, it's much sadder to see something similar but less spectacular gets the credit.
so sad.

so sad.

lesson learned.

Friday, October 26, 2012

the best thing..

I'm not a journalist who often travel hunting for stories every week,
due to visual editorial work, I couldnt.. yep.

but so far, the best thing about being a journalist is..

you can see and experience things ordinary people couldn't.

despite the harsh reality of its small pay and uncertain working hours,
that is what keep me going..

"can you see yourself still working here in 10 years time?"

I could not promise you that, but for the moment, 

yeah, this is the place I'm most suitable.

ps: andd I need to buy a smartphone-lah.

Monday, October 22, 2012

the truth is ..

I didn't really recover..


So do we need to project a good self image to be accepted?

if so then, what kind of good self image is to be accepted?

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

time is gold.

"This workplace is like a broken time machine, it goes fast forward to the future, not back to the past.

don't be too indulged with your job, find other attachment too.

because if you don't, soon you will realize you're hitting 40 +, without anyone besides you yet"

tapi boss.. saya baru 7 bulan masuk kerja....

Thursday, August 30, 2012

open up.

is not something I can do,
I'm not the person who just sit and throw all of my important personal story on anyone.
just ask anybody who close to me,

"ego dia sebesar lautan"

and that's the kind of answer you shall receive.

The statement is right, and also wrong at the same time.

Sunday, August 26, 2012


Semua mahukan yang sempurna sebagai partner.
expectation pula bermacam-macam.
tapi diri sendiri bagaimana?
menepatikah expectation sang partner?
sempurnakah diri? sudah cukup ilmu?
harta? stabilkah emosi?

aku belum.
"When you smile, the corners of your mouth curve up and you sometimes show your teeth. People smile when they are pleased or amused, or when they are being friendly.  "

...or when they are being friendly.

Thursday, August 09, 2012


"hah! maksud iftar tu pun tak tahu? apa punya meleis lah"

pada aku, muslim, atau individu yang baik, adalah mereka yang menerangi jalan bagi mereka yang jahil dengan niat suci,
dengan penuh senyuman.

bukan dengan perli, dan juga kutukan.

apa salahnya jika orang kurang berpengetahuan itu bertanya?
bukankah elok jika kamu suluhkan ilmu kepada dia, terangkan dengan baik.

bukan mengejek, dan memperlihatkan kepada orang ramai tentang kejahilan dia.
bagaimana mahu memperlihatkan sisi islam yang baik pada umum jika kita sendiri berperangai begini?


tahniah warganegara Malaysia.

kerana kebanyakan kamu berfikiran positif terhadap atlet yang kalah berjuang.

betapa bangganya aku kepada Dato LCW, bangga lagi aku kepada orang kita.
diharap suatu hari nanti lagu negaraku akan berjaya berkumandang di pentas olimpik.

Sukan , sememangnya dapat menyatukan warganegara.

Saturday, July 28, 2012


is moving quickly... very quickly.
I started working on February and woooshhh now it's near August.

I don't know about others,
but since I'm working, life has been like a fast spinning routine.

wake up early,
work til late night.
and then wake up again...

and today I decided to sit and look back at what's happening around me..

father is working extra shift because he need to replace his injured colleague.
he shouldn't be doing that, he needs to rest more.

mother's hair turned grey a bit.. sign of ageing.

my little brother who used to be loud , now enters 'rebel teenage' age. he is now quiet and controlling his macho all the time.

I need to appreciate time more,

"all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy"

Sunday, July 08, 2012


It's hard to accept a fact that you've build and believe all these years,
is only just a fantasy, sweetened by lies and deceptions.

This world is harsh, but quite reasonable.
When I sit and think back of what happened,
it's better to fall and be able to back up again,
than to fall and hanged to death.

'live your life' as she says.

ps: now where's my cameraman, been waiting for an hour.

Saturday, June 23, 2012

perang saraf.

cakap tidak serupa bikin.
aku tidak berminat dengan orang sebegini.

perang saraf kini bermula.

Sunday, June 17, 2012


stupidity, is essential to shape characters.
it shows you, what's right,
and what's wrong.

the problem is, 
how do we, individuals, 
accept every consequences for things that we've made,
and decide how our life goes afterwards.

some learnt their lesson, some keep being stupid.

Thursday, June 14, 2012


a - "hey kau tahu tak dia ni perangai sebenarnya begitu dan begini"

a - "dia ni sebenarnya ada masalah"

a - "dia semalam begitu dan begini"

khabar angin seronok didengar, sesuai dijadikan hiburan masa lapang, juga penambah dosa kering.

b - "jadi kau dah kenal dia personally?"

a - "oh tidak, ada orang beritahu aku"

b - " ohhh..."

b - "pernah tegur dia?"

a - "tidak.."

b - "ohhh..."


aku selalu jadikan cerita begini sebagai panduan, buku manual sebelum mengenali seseorang, tetapi, jauh sekali gunakan sumber ini sebagai langkah mengelakkan diri dari berkenalan.

aku percaya setiap manusia ada masalah dan sikap tersendiri.
kamu yang menyebarkan cerita pun tidak terkecuali....aku juga.

Saturday, June 09, 2012


benarlah, jika kamu ada nama. semuanya mudah.

rasa seperti ditipu, BIG TIME.

ah well... I have a research to do.

Monday, June 04, 2012

a thousand smiles.

we're magnets,
we need something to complete us.

be it your loved ones, hobby, work, or even your favorite mamak stall.
it will definitely help you to overcome shits that life has given us everyday.

I'm happy for a friend today.
and I hope his other half will be able to clean up his messed up life.

so, find something that complete you.

ps: I envy those who can enjoy their life everyday. 

Monday, May 28, 2012


Hari ini pergi majlis perkahwinan rakan.
melihat gambar lama beliau, teringat akan album lama sendiri.

menatap balik.
rasa nostalgik menjerkah diri.

teringat cerita kejayaan dan kesilapan, kegagalan.

nanti masa kahwin aku mahu buat tema perang angkasa pula.
tapi tak tahu la bila mahu kahwin, calon pun tiada,
kalau ada pun, duit tiada.

ps: lama juga tidak berjumpa rakan lama...

Wednesday, May 16, 2012


hari ini, waktu berlalu sememangnya lama,
doa dimakbulkan rasanya.

seronok melihat rakan-rakan gembira.
dalam gembira, timbul sesal.

dari banyak aspek,
perkara, boleh menjadi lebih baik sebenarnya.

"bagaimanapun hidup perlu diteruskan."

sekarang mahu tumpu beli barang-barang yang berada dalam wishlist pula.

Monday, May 14, 2012


hidup seharian berlalu begitu pantas,
tanpa sedar bahawa, aku masih bergelar pelajar.
Esok, aku pinta masa berlalu lambat,
mahu nikmati saat-saat terakhir di menara gading,

sebelum rutin hidup kembali seperti biasa.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

don't you agree?

we're all used to say this with glorious tone,

'I want to change this world to a better place'

Until reality checks in.
few survived though.

Sunday, April 15, 2012


I used to watch lots of movies for inspiration.
now, I haven't got much time to watch one.

Going to places far away,
broaden my perspective.
Ideas comes into mind
like water pouring into a bowl.

'Jauh Perjalanan, Luas Pandangan'

but the problem is,
I don't goes out often.

am thinking to buy a good book,
and be inspired by it.
but will it be enough?

I have no time.
I need to find a time.

so how to be inspired constantly?

by compliment?

by playing music?

a good supportive women who love me?



women.. no, not now.
am not ready for this shit.

Saturday, April 14, 2012


In order to know a person's heart,
we can always ask people on how good or bad he/she really is in their eyes.

but, we can't just stop right there,
give the person, a chance, to show what their true colors.
in the same time, be careful.

words of mouth,it can be good or bad.

Monday, April 02, 2012


you can't never please everyone.
staying true to yourself til the end, is the best way.

or is it?

Saturday, February 25, 2012


I remember trying to talk to you in highschool
couldnt even get a look cos you were too cool
but now were older were playing by the new rules
we lived and learned!

Thursday, February 23, 2012


I think, I enjoy with how things goes right now.
productivity. meeting new things.
I think I'm starting to love my job.
though the future is unpredictable,
but I think it's better to live your life now, than to always worry about tomorrow.
for now, I hope I will be not be to indulged with work,
that I forget there's more to life than working.

and now, I have to wait patiently for my first salary. =.=

Friday, February 17, 2012


In order to be smart,
one must experience total foolishness,
so that they can make better decisions in the future.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

seperti biasa.

Hari ni tiada beza.
tapi aku bukan anti hari ini.
peduli apa aku hari ini.
menyampah aku lihat kebanyakan manusia penggerak hate hari ini.

Hipokrit, kebanyakannya.

Macam biasa, aku masih mengejar mimpi.
cuma kali ini di harap rezeki akan datang awal sikit.

Tak sanggup lagi mahu menyusahkan yang tersayang.

Friday, February 10, 2012


Rezeki setiap individu berbeza.


Kalau kau anggap dunia ini tidak adil,
kau bodoh.

Malas aku nak memberi contoh kasihan kanak-kanak di Afrika.
Kamu semua sudah tahu.

Aku syukur atas segala yang terjadi sekarang,
walaupun banyak perkara yang terjadi sejak kebelakangan ini,
membuat aku sangsi tentang hala tuju hidup aku.

Hari ini, terdengar khabar individu yang tidak pernah aku tegur,
meninggal dunia.

maut datang secara tiba-tiba.

Justeru membuat aku berfikir,
nyawa kita, juga satu rezeki.
seperti arwah,
beliau juga mungkin mempunyai impian duniawi,
impian yang tak mungkin beliau dapat gapai sekarang.

kita masih hidup, masih ada peluang untuk menggapai segala impian,
bebas mewarnakan hidup kita sendiri.
tidak kiralah mahu ber-isterikan Mila Kunis ka, ataupun mahu menjadi tauke Gelang Ajaib,
tetapi selagi kita masih hidup, masih bernyawa,
peluang tetap ada,

dan rezeki akan datang.
walau bukan dengan cara yang kamu mahukan,
tapi mungkin, 
dengan cara lain.

positive thinking brother

Al-Fatihah -  Daim bin Jamaluddin (akas) 

Saturday, February 04, 2012

susah sebenarnya

untuk mengelakkan diri dari tidak dikata dan difitnah,
adalah perkara paling mustahil untuk dilakukan.
jadi dahulu, aku pernah buat satu resolusi baru,
resolusi untuk diri sendiri.

elak diri dari berkata buruk tentang orang lain.
tampak senang, tapi susah.

aku jadi penat bila lihat kawan, menjadi lawan.
individu yang sebenarnya baik atau tidaklah sejahat mana pun, 
jatuh dan dipulau,
hanya kerana khabar angin yang berpunca dari kata-kata,
yang mulanya ringan, terus berat.

betul, kadang kata-kata ini sangat perlu,
untuk beri peringatan, tentang apa yang akan berlaku jika kamu
berkawan dengan seseorang yang dimaksudkan itu.

tetapi cara penyampaiannya perlu lah dengan cara yang baik,
menasihati, bukan menghasut.

tapi kata-kata bukan mudah untuk di elak.
aku sendiri selalu buat.

tapi aku cuba kawal. 
terpulang pada kamu semua untuk menilai,
jika kamu bercerita pada aku,
cuba lihat,
adakah cerita kamu itu akan tersebar keesokan harinya atau tidak.

jika kamu hanya bercerita pada aku lah.
tapi jika hari itu kamu sudah bercerita kepada 100 orang yang bertuah.
mungkin kamu perlu mula 'menghitung' kesan kelakuan kamu.
dan mula muhasabah diri.

terima kasih.


Things will be different from now on.
There's no more fantasy and ambition.
Only plans and executions.
I might miss my old routine.
but it is enough to think that things can only get better if I put my soul in it.

Well, if it's not getting any better,
finding a way to escape from it is better than whining 24/7,
about how cruel life is.

am really hope to get out from this mess soon.
It's time to start doing what I am planning to do since forever,
to achieve the best, and be happy in life.

well, if I can't be the best, I'm content with being happy instead. 

Thursday, January 19, 2012


is not the month I hoped it would be.

unproductive, no fun, too much drama.

still waiting for the offer though,
I miss the excitement of making stories,
meeting people,
seeing new things.

I hope I can land the job.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012


No matter what happens,
They will eventually fall for stupid unreasonable things.
good educations and experiences don't matter.

'Interesting' they say.
they can only see that these articles can bring them... 


with complete false promises.

then they raged with words of blame and hate.
only to fall again right after that.

and I can only say,
It would be a never ending boring repetitions.
if you choose to stay with it.

Sunday, January 08, 2012


I hope I can achieve that this year.

Friday, January 06, 2012


The truth hurts, they say.
but at least, it teaches me to be careful next time.

If only I can turn back the time,
I will change my decision,
and made it all for myself than think about others,

revenge is sweet they say,
but I will not opt for it.
time will heal,
and positive things will happen for sure.

for now, it is all you,
all you,

despite everything that happens,
I will pray for our success.
Nope, I will not do anything,
trust me.

Monday, January 02, 2012


Dunia ini tidak berputar mengikut paksi yang kamu mahukan.
bukan semua manusia lahirnya untuk jadi sempurna.
jika semua perlu mengikut acuan yang kamu mahu.
bosan dan tiada berwarna lah.

sedih betul.

ps: avoid heavily judgemental people, people.

Sunday, January 01, 2012

new year resolution.

1440 x 900

okay, lame joke is lame.

2011 has been amazing, really.
I wish 2012 to be a breakthrough year.
and yes, to be less hopeful of the unknown, I need to love myself more.

ps: it's still not the time to experiment though, but who knows?