falls head first.

To kill oneself, over an issue,
is a stupid move.
come on, if you can think to jump,
and end life, just like that...

then why don't you just do something with great risk?
invest big on something new?
climb a mountain with dangerous peak?
do something that will guarantee you a 70% death?

at least you are doing something fun/thrilling/scary.
it's not like you're afraid to die ain't you?


though, I believe some people couldn't stand up on their own,
but it does not mean you need to bear and be hurt yourself?
find a friend,
change.

since you're thinking of killing yourself.
why don't you just try,

it's not like you're afraid of anything ain't you?



ps: I might be high.

earn.

To prove people wrong,

is the best feeling ever.

I'm not gifted with the best looks and talents,

but I am on my way to use what I have,

to reach the stars.

The best player, is a person who are capable of using whatever he/she have in hands,

and turn it onto something beautiful, meaningful, profitable even.

and yes, I'm on my way to master that.

ps : oh yea, yesterday marks the anniversary of this blog first post, lots of things happen afterwards. When I read back the first post, I'm unsured of who is the writer of this blog, but then, time changes people, changes me,

though I still believe there are grammatical errors hidden somewhere in this post.

pick.

They say, follow the flow..

.. and things will come pick you up, one by one.

Then life will show you the way, guides you to the correct path it believe.

But ,

what if things aren’t that simple?

What if there’s like a monster and scoundrels come haunting you all the way..

Lingering around your thoughts every time you decide to decide a decision?

Living a life is a risk,

And this is a risk I’m willing to take..

Not that I’m going to die anyway.

critics.

Some people can only do critics,

but they can't do things that they criticize on.

It's okay to give opinions full with suggestion and stating flaws positively.

but to bash and criticize using harsh words, is an evil thing to do.

attraction.

Looks is everything, at first.


after that, personality and situation takes the crown.

distracted.

Everytime I'm distracted, and forget who I am, and who I was..
I will sit down, keep my calm,
and remember...

... the reason why I chose this path.

ghostly past.

A long time ago,

after a pathetic heartbreak, I told myself.

"you need to man up, study, chase your dreams, and reach the stars"

After a few years, came a distraction.

I forgot,

and carried away.

Today, I stumble upon a ghost.

Still the same.

not all has changed since last we met.

and that smile.

melts.

It's like she didn't age.

and suddenly I remember my vow.

I've done my study, but still chasing my dreams,

blindly chasing.

and haven't reach the stars.

freezed.

I have a problem,

despite my job,

I'm a bit socially awkward.

I tend to be quiet with people I don't know..

I don't usually be like 

'hey how are you?'

'today is hot eh?'

'tak balik lagi?'

dah makan?'

I thought those lines were silly, and too mainstream.

and because I couldn't come up with something better,

staying quiet is the best choice.

I need an igniter,

people who just spit out those mainstream lines,

so that I can connect and engage a conversation with them.

Today,

while waiting for a recording tape,

I tried to engage in a conversation with a lady,

and like usual,

I failed to think of a pickup lines  conversation starter.

gotta man up next time.

and maybe use those mainstream silly lines for a try.

Pray

Bashing an institution through a social media...
couldn't help all the innocent people being tortured over there.

Pray.

or go there, help them survive.

Sheesh, and I can only talk.

Stripes.

Often I thought about my future.
Will people recognize me when I'm dead?
Will I be able to stamp a mark in this life?

and be remembered?

I need to make a name for myself on this planet before I'm gone.

loser.

losing things,

is not what I am aiming for ...

but in order to win, 

we must first taste defeat.

taken for granted.

It's sad to see something that you've sacrificed with your whole heart,

is taken by granted.

no appreciation.

but above that, it's much sadder to see something similar but less spectacular gets the credit.

so sad.

so sad.

lesson learned.

the best thing..

I'm not a journalist who often travel hunting for stories every week,

due to visual editorial work, I couldnt.. yep.

but so far, the best thing about being a journalist is..

you can see and experience things ordinary people couldn't.

despite the harsh reality of its small pay and uncertain working hours,

that is what keep me going..

"can you see yourself still working here in 10 years time?"

I could not promise you that, but for the moment, 

yeah, this is the place I'm most suitable.

ps: andd I need to buy a smartphone-lah.

the truth is ..

I didn't really recover..

image

So do we need to project a good self image to be accepted?

if so then, what kind of good self image is to be accepted?

time is gold.

"This workplace is like a broken time machine, it goes fast forward to the future, not back to the past.

don't be too indulged with your job, find other attachment too.

because if you don't, soon you will realize you're hitting 40 +, without anyone besides you yet"



tapi boss.. saya baru 7 bulan masuk kerja....

open up.

is not something I can do,
I'm not the person who just sit and throw all of my important personal story on anyone.
just ask anybody who close to me,

"ego dia sebesar lautan"

and that's the kind of answer you shall receive.




The statement is right, and also wrong at the same time.

refleksi.

Semua mahukan yang sempurna sebagai partner.
expectation pula bermacam-macam.
tapi diri sendiri bagaimana?
menepatikah expectation sang partner?
sempurnakah diri? sudah cukup ilmu?
harta? stabilkah emosi?


aku belum.

"When you smile, the corners of your mouth curve up and you sometimes show your teeth. People smile when they are pleased or amused, or when they are being friendly.  "

...or when they are being friendly.

salam.

"hah! maksud iftar tu pun tak tahu? apa punya meleis lah"



pada aku, muslim, atau individu yang baik, adalah mereka yang menerangi jalan bagi mereka yang jahil dengan niat suci,
dengan penuh senyuman.

bukan dengan perli, dan juga kutukan.

apa salahnya jika orang kurang berpengetahuan itu bertanya?
bukankah elok jika kamu suluhkan ilmu kepada dia, terangkan dengan baik.

bukan mengejek, dan memperlihatkan kepada orang ramai tentang kejahilan dia.
bagaimana mahu memperlihatkan sisi islam yang baik pada umum jika kita sendiri berperangai begini?

salam.